NoteToSelf : (2012 ‘ny resolution’)
- quality over quantity, only buy ‘essential basics’ and ‘statement pieces’ to minimise too much spending too many times.
- train myself to be patient, do not give in to temptation too quickly, a good buy takes time.
- know in my heart but also in my mind, rationalise.
-  be confident in my decisions.
- do not compare, be happy with what i have because that is what makes me who i am.
- do not strive so hard for what i cannot get, what’s meant to be is meant to be, if it does not happen today it will happen another day.

Lana Del Rey

I’ve been reading and hearing that there have been negative perceptions towards Lana Del Rey, I’m not sure what they are yet, I guess because I’m quickly becoming one of her fans and couldn’t really care less what others say about her… I simply love how her voice has that capacity to tell a story in such an interesting, moving and fresh way; ironically though, her songs make me feel as though I’ve experienced such feelings,the feelings of de ja vu perhaps,  from a long and distant dream…captivating and artistically inspirational…

“TheOfficialMySpace” writes a little about what they think under the exclusive interview with Lana Del Rey:  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-7QwPDRP__o

Haters are gonna hate. The re­al­i­ty for an artist is that not ev­ery­one is go­ing to love what you make. Not ev­ery­body is go­ing to un­der­stand where you are com­ing from. Not ev­ery­one will give you the ben­e­fit of the doubt when doubt is ram­pant. In our pre-pack­aged world we haven’t been ex­posed to the growth of an artist. We can’t let some­one grow, can we? It’s not good enough that the artist is smart, in­sight­ful and mes­mer­iz­ing. That artist should not miss the mark AT ALL. The artist should not have anx­i­ety or be ner­vous about the mas­sive steps that con­front and car­ry her for­ward in­to an un­known world of fast-paced scruti­ny and lim­it­less judge­ment. Lana Del Rey is a beau­ti­ful, shy and in­tri­cate hu­man be­ing with a mean­ing­ful and sul­try voice that con­nects both emo­tion­al­ly and vis­cer­al­ly. Her style is im­pec­ca­ble and her pres­ence res­onates with both cu­rios­i­ty and con­fi­dence. The “Video Games” sin­gle that met with so much love pushed her in­to the world. She has on­ly had a few shows to cap­ture her per­son­al melodies in a pub­lic pre­sen­ta­tion that match­es who she is. This is about sup­port­ing artists in their fu­ture. We should be there for their best and most chal­leng­ing mo­ments as they grow in­to their full po­ten­tial. If you have be­lief in the artists you love, then be­lieve that it’s about the jour­ney, and not just the des­ti­na­tions. (ie. SNL) Lana Del Rey is a true artist on her way to great­ness and, the truth is, you have to love her a lit­tle to hate her at all.

another valentines post

Understandable.
People are always very bitter on Valentines when they don’t have a special someone, have a bit of a sook and a whine and feel sorry for themselves.
I know I’m not exactly in the best position to be the one being critical since I’ve had a bf of 6 years, but really, c’mon, we’re not 15 years old anymore.

The hypocritical part of all this is when the singlies  pronounce how cliche Valentines is, how they’re too good for the pink and red roses, chocolates and teddy bears, conveniently while they are still single. However, the year they do find a significant other, they’ll announce how loved and spoilt they are all over facebook on Valentines.
It’s one thing to preach ‘single awareness day’, but another to be an egotistic hypocrite. And it’s not only with valentines, but with everything. I guess what makes it all open to judgement is the fact that these people enjoy opening their big mouths on facebook. They want their opinion to be validated by ‘likes’, to elevate their pride and to secure their insecurities.

Reality is, just because you didn’t have a bf/gf last year, does not quite give you the right to self-sympathise , nor gives you the right to  declare how stupid Valentines is, because (your) facebook shows that your current honey has suddenly made you think otherwise.

Sometimes you just gotta keep your thoughts to yourselves;
this probably applies to myself too.

being

it only just hit me that this year will be my last year of visual arts before i completely devote myself to art humanities, and i can honestly say that i am already starting to miss it even at the mere thought of it. one of my fears is that i will lose my creativity and imagination, after all, my choice to continue studying visual art through to university was precisely because of that. i value it too much to let go of it, with nothing grounding me to it, i am scared that i will stop growing creatively and forget that i ever had a skill/intellect/talent for it. and that is why i am writing this post, to remind me to make the most of my visual/photography studies. having completed my minor in art theory, my strength in my studies, i sometimes wonder whether i should have chosen to major in art theory instead; but i could not bear to think that i could do art without doing any practical-work that it is inevitably associated with. just because i have finished studying art theory, does not mean i should stop educating myself about artists and art movements, i should make it the soul source of my inspiration even if i do not have to write 3000 word essays on them. i will miss it very dearly though.
in saying all of this, i know it is not going to be easy. i am lazy, aren’t we all. passion often gets confused with obligation, what we enjoy is often spoiled when we have to study it. i think this is what happened when uni started, my joy and refuge from stress was always music and art, but when all i studied was the arts, it sometimes became very tedious, consequently causing the lack in passion i used to have.
but this year i aim to drench myself in the culture they call The Arts, lol. be a wanky art student, dress like a wanky art student and maintain wanky art student scores (the good kind). if my full focus is set on this, i bet i can kill more than two birds with this one stone, indulging in the idea of being ‘unique’ means i will spend less money on ‘mainstream-trendy’ clothes – or at least desire them a lot less than i have recently, whether that means being your typical ‘indie’ or that ‘arty farty girl’.

i have to continue my practice in visual art to keep that passion lit, i have to read and always be informed whether or not my studies call for it. i have to have to have to.

be artistically aware.

Art alone makes life possible – this is how radically I should like to formulate it. I would say that without art man is inconceivable in physiological terms… …I would say man does not consist only of chemical processes, but also of metaphysical occurrences. The provocateur of the chemical processes is located outside the world. Man is only truly alive when he realizes he is a creative, artistic being… …Even the act of peeling a potato can be a work of art if it is a conscious act. 
-Joseph Beuys  

it doesn’t matter how much i get, i’ll never get enough

i need to stop being so greedy and appreciate what i already have. value more important things than materialistic shit, and stop hating myself so that i can be confident that who i am and what i have is better than anything else i could possibly compare myself to…

random thoughts

by the way, what is with the excess shameless self promotion going around on blogs and such, i find it amusing when people make it out to seem like they’re famous when really, let’s face it, barely as popular as the modern day “youtube-star”, in fact, those webpage hits is hardly accurate when people google shit all day and just happen to click on your link thinking they would find the answer to their questions to find they exit the page just 3 seconds later because they realise they’ve hit yet another boring blogger’s page..
and so this is why i can’t help but laugh that they could possible think they’re popular..because they think people are actually reading their blogs..
interesting to see the where the sources of our egos come from..

 

anyways, i feel like wearing fake lashes regularly LOL it won’t happen but itd be pretty awesome if i could be bothered and if it was comfortable..

so.. apparently dating someone, or “seeing someone” is not the same as calling someone your bf/gf …….
interesting

 

the older i get, the more bitter i am about people and life in general

most of the times i’m convinced i’m insanely depressed or just plain emo.

why do i have to be such a hater

cos i dance like a dork

why do chicks at the club like to dance with their hands tousling their hair, no one told me the-grudge hairstyle was in on the floor

apparently it gives you more xxx factor

to me it looks like they just desperately need to hold something (insert dirty innuendo)

i’m not a victim of this trend yet, at the moment i just look like an awkward kangaroo hopping up and down to the doof doof

but seriously, some girls really need to get over themselves
i’m not sure why they want to look like meat on a stick anyways (wow i’m on fire with the puns today!)

sometimes i just want to walk up to their faces and tell them to

please stop; you look like a slut


then again, maybe i’m saying too much.

high heels high hopes

“You can’t change your situation, the only thing you can change is how you choose to deal with it.”

(Thanks to karen’s fb post), I’ve just painted this on a canvas for my wall to remind me that, things will always be difficult, nothing’s ever easy, so I had better learn to deal with it all before I become totally insane.  If people don’t compromise for you, you simply just compromise for them, it’s unfair but it’s the only way to keep the peace. If things and people frustrate you, opt for the classic ignorance, they’re not worth your time and effort. While all of this proved to me to be practically impossible ;;;

full o’ cliches

I don’t need more reasons to feel shit about myself.

For the purpose of self-comfort..
I think, in life, it is important not to do something you’re good at, but what you know you can be good at,  that way there will be less disappointments and more achievements, the drive to succeed will never wane and thus the thirst for life (lol cliche) will never wane.
I guess then it is less about doing something ‘easy’, but something challenging so that life will  always be full of surprises, a place where you will never stop learning.